The Exhaustion of Being Palatable, A Rant of the Day Blog Article Written By Jenn D Real
The Exhaustion of Being Palatable, A Rant of the Day Blog Article Written By Jenn D Real There is a kind of loneliness that comes from being loved only in edited form. Not hated. Not abandoned outright. Just slowly compressed into something easier for other people to digest. For years, I believed survival depended on self-suppression. I edited my words while they were still forming. Softened my thoughts before they reached the air. Removed strange metaphors from my sentences. Lowered my enthusiasm before anyone could call it “too much.” Rehearsed reactions in advance. Smoothed over intensity before it unsettled someone else. I learned how to translate myself into something safer. From the outside, it looked functional. That is the dangerous part. Something a lot of people discover too late: constant self-suppression can look functional from the outside while quietly draining the core systems that make a person feel alive. You can become incredibly skilled at performing normalcy ...